Say a prayer for the DEAD & Burried

thesocialretard @ 2007-01-05T01:08:00

2007-01-05T08:08:41Z

this journals too emo
you can find me at
my new domain.

ninjahighschool@lj.com

ADD IT BITCH!

thesocialretard @ 2006-07-14T12:12:00

2006-07-14T18:14:42Z

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the end

2006-07-09T06:09:29Z

AFTER TWO YEARS
I FINALLY GOT A NEW
LIVEJOURNAL.
ninjahighschooladd me. i'm deleting
this account.
kthnks.

GRADUATION ENTRY

2006-06-30T08:42:52Z

I remember ;

When getting high meant swinging at the playground.
The worst thing you could get from boys was cooties.
Mom was your hero and Dad was the only boy in your life.
Your worst enemies were your siblings.
Race issues were who ran the fastest.
War was a card game.
The only drug you knew of was cough medicine.
Wearing skirts didn't mean you were a slut.
The only thing you smoked was the tires on your bike.
The only thing that hurt was skinned knees.
The only things that could get broken were your toys.

Life was simple and carefree,
but what i remember
the most was wanting to grow up.
Now I just want to be a kid again.

ACK I GOTTA GO GRADUATE NOW.
WISH ME LUCK THAT I WON'T FALL ON MY FACE.
HAR HAR AT ME FOR DRINKING, AND JUST GETTING HOME.
AND GOING TO THE PODOLLAN.
AND NOT GETTING A GOOD NIGHTS SLEEP.
SEE YOU AT THE CEREMONIES.
I LOVE YOU.

i took this, because everyone else is doing it

2006-06-28T20:49:15Z

I WILL - take a shower sometime today
I WONT - try to stress out so much because everything is going wrong
I THINK - my piercing hates me. it's infected
I SHOULD- do laundry
I COULD - take my piercing out. but i really dont want to
I WOULD - love to have flawless skin for grad
I DIDNT - go to grad song rehersal today. i slept through it
I LOOK - like hell
I HEAR - regina spektor
I HURT - my leg. it's all scratched up from bugbites. GREAT
I H0PE - everything will work out for graduation because i'm stressed
I LOVE - regina spektor, i would go gay for her
I HATE - the weather. SERIOUSLY IT'S UNCOMFORTABLE
I FEAR - further infection of monroey.
I HOPE TO - get a good nights sleep tonight
I CRAVE - sushi
I DONT - want to hang out with anyone today. i'm kinda of a mess
I NEED - to workout, i'm a fat slob
I FEEL - grimy,gross,greasy and fat
I REGRET - nothing. regretting things is stupid
I CARE - about my friends, deeply i do
I AM ALWAYS TRYING TO - get my computer to work, too bad he doesn't cooperate
I LISTEN TO - regina spektor, SEX TO THE EARS
I HIDE - my ugly skin under like 5lbs of cakeface makeup
I SING - in the shower
I WRITE - in livejournal
I MISS- being young
I LEARN - nothing. I'M OUT OF SCHOOL FOOLS
I'LL ALWAYS - be self-concious
I WILL BE - myself. always
I SAY IT - what?
I DONT THINK - I have an outfit to wear under my cap and gown
I LOVE TO - worry
I WORRY - all the time. i should chill out more
I MISS - the sims 2
I CANT STAND - being so unsure about myself
I LOST - batteries for my camera. fuck fuck fuck
I DANCE - when i feel like effin dancing
I BELIEVE - god honestly hates me
I KNOW - things eventually work out
I HOPE - I made the right choices
I FELL - in love twice, and got hurt twice
I ALWAYS - brush my teeth, three times a day
I WISH - all of my worries/problems would go away
I CRY - because i'm super-sensitive
I WANT - super long eyelashes
I HAVE - no clean clothes

water spots

2006-06-27T07:02:38Z

I prolly have the sexiest relatives alive.
HER FOR EXAMPLE.
ohmygosh. sexbombsexbomb you my sex bomb.

too bad we don't even look related.
i wish i had a puffy white afro.

hurr advice

2006-06-25T17:44:47Z

Alright Kids.
After grad, Imma get my hurr cut.
And yeah. Here are some of the pictures of haircuts I like.
Also I'm getting extentions in my hair in the summer.

So this is kind of how I want my hair cut:

Option 1:

Option 2:

Option 3:

Soo yeah which one do you think I should do?!!

thesocialretard @ 2006-06-18T22:42:00

2006-06-19T04:44:40Z

Hey Hoes.
SCHOOOLS OUT FOR SUMMER.
DUNDUNDUNDUNDUNDUNDUNDUNN
SCHOOLS OUT FOREVER!!1!
I'm done exams.
I had no diplomas.
Just thought I'd rub it in
one more time because everyone
wants me to die everytime I say it.
I get to sleep in tomorrow, LE YAY!
I had a pretty good weekend.
Good times at Chelseas, Got very crunk indeed.

And now.. for some photos.
I will upload the rest of the last day of school photos
soon....

thesocialretard @ 2006-06-14T00:53:00

2006-06-14T06:54:47Z

I HATE FIGHTING.
I HATE FRENCH PROJECTS.
I HATE THE FACT THAT I'M NOT EVEN LIKE STARTED MY MUSIC COMPOSITION PROJECT.
I HATE PEOPLE WHO ARE ARROGENT JERKS.
I AM FULL OF HATE.

I do however love caffine.
And good music.
And purple glue sticks.
And how easily amused I am.

But fuck.. this is the longest night/day ever.
And things.. are not looking so bright.

But soon schools out.
forever.

Two Months exactly till my birthday.

2006-06-09T16:55:20Z

So I just finished "The Perks of Being A Wallflower" this morning. I started it yesterday at work, and stayed up really late just to read it. I couldn't put the book down. From begining to end, it was just perfect. I suggest anyone who hasn't read it, go get it or borrow it from me or something.
The things that went on in the life of the character Charlie, really related to obsticles and problems that came up in my life during highschool. I guess it's kind of ironic that I read the book so close to the conclusion of the school year, and high school.

In "Perks" it was talking a lot about the book "Naked Lunch", and it sparked my interest, if anyone has read it can they tell me if it's any good?

Next on my reading list, is "The House of Leaves". It's kind of funny because everyone seems to be reading or trying to read it right now anyways. Which is a good thing for me, because then maybe I'll somehow get what the fuck is going on in the book. I looked at it , some of the pages and I was like "OH GOOD LORD" but I'm really excited to start it.

Yeah, I am huge booknerd.
I just realized after everything I just typed
that some of you are probably laughign at me
because I just made myself sound like I have no life
other than reading, which is only partically true because
the rest of my time is spent at work. HAHA.

Fridays at school are always pretty dull.
I have to stay here during my spares, because classes are
shortened and there's no point in going home.

I'm kind of feeling a little stressed right now.
I have three projects in french due by the end of school.
I've started all three, I'm going to finish one of them tonight, and then the rest of the weekend will be me
trying to finish the other two. And then I will have
the week to study for my final in french, because
I want to get at least a 90 on it so I can keep a high
mark in the course, and say I did good on something in highschool. You know, if an english teacher or english major in
University read my entries, they would probably be appauled
at how many run-on sentences, and inproper paragraphing
I have.

I have to still figure out what I am going to do for my arranging project in music. I dislike transposing very much, buuuuuut it has to be done.

Alright, I'm feeling a little bit of motiviation right now,
so perhaps I will work on some more of my french projects.

I have to make a photocopy, but there is a man fixing the machine. Just my luck.

I've also worked all week, I dislike work very much right now. But I won't when I get paid next, hey I got paid today. Things are looking better already.

LONG ENTRY. Very scattered. My appologies.

Yes, I got THAT bored

2006-06-06T19:03:07Z

sat through a whole episode of...
[x] the simple life.
[x] family guy.
[x] saturday night live.
[x] that 70s show.
[x] degrassi.
[x] america's next top model.
[x] spongebob
[ ] the surreal life.
[x] american idol.
[x] house.
[x] grey's anatomy.
[x] malcolm in the middle.
[ ] the real world.
[x] gilmore girls.
[x] the oc.
[x] everwood.
[ ] love the 70s, 80s, 90s.
[x] ER.
[ ] instant star.
[ ]the wiggles.
[x] laguna beach.
[x]the apprentice
[ ] the soup.
[ ] date my mom.
[xxx<333] sex and the city.
[x] 24
[ ] lost.
[x] prison break.
[x] desperate housewives.
[x] the simpsons.
[ ] the sopranos.
[ ] my name is earl.
[x]friends.
[x] the office.
[x]will & grace.
[x] seinfeld.
[x] zoey 101.
[x] pimp my ride.
[x]saved by the bell.
[ ] So Notorious.
[x] punk'd.
[x] boy meets world.

AKA: I WATCH TOO MUCH DAMN TELEVISION
________________________________________________

Today did you...

1. Talk to someone you liked: no.
2. Buy something: ughh no.
3. Get sick: nope
4. Sing: yes
5. Make out and or kiss someone: no.
8. Talk to an ex: no
9. Miss someone: yes/
___________________________________________________

Last person who....

10. Layed in a bed with you: Marcus.
11. Saw you cry: Probably Marcus, or Shanna.
12. Made you cry: I don't really remember, it's been a while.
13. Went to the movies with you: My daddy. We saw the Davinci Code.
14. Made you Laugh: Shanna, when we were watching Sex and the City during sparology.
15. Made you angry: Mr Eddy, he talked the entire damn theory class , I couldn't
concentrate on my assignment, and then I had to rush it, and it's crap.
________________________________________

16. Ever been in a fight with your pet: What a random question. No?
17. Been to California: No. I want to. WARRRRRRRRMNESS.
18. Been to Hawaii: No.
19. Been to Canada: Duh.
20. Been to Europe: Yes. I want to go back someday.
______________________________________________

Random....

21. Looking forward to something: Graduation in a way, and summer :)
22. What book are you reading now: Angels and Demons , but I have books on order in the mail!
25. What do you sleep with: Blankies?
26. What's under your bed: Random clothes, socks and old magazines.
27. Favorite sport to watch: Nothing, I'm not a sports person.
28. Current Location: Downstairs living room.
29. Piercings/tattoos: Monroe, Ears.
30. What are you most scared of right now: Graduation.
31. Where do you want to get married? Anywhere but fort mcmurray thanks.
32. Who do you really hate?: The only person I can say I hate is Gillian Lowell.
33. Do you have a job: Yes. Do I like it? No.
35. Do you like being around people: yes.
36. Have you ever cried: Dumb question, of course.. I have emotions.
37. Are you lonely right now: Not really, my dog is curled up beside me.
38. Song that's stuck in your head right now: Summer Rain, some WAY OLD 80s pop song. Haha.
39. Played strip poker: Yes.
41. Been on radio/TV: Yes, I was on the radio once, and I did a commercial for CTV when I was little.
42. Ever liked someone who treated you like crap?: Yes. Jerks.
__________________________________________________

FIRSTS
1. First school: Summer Smiles Pre-School or else Ecole Birchwood School
2. First screenname: Something along the lines of Princess Chatterbox. LOLZ AT ME.
3. First funeral: Dana's moms funeral.
4. First big trip: Paris and England.
5. First celebrity love: Jonathon Taylor Thomas
6. First job: Babysitting.
__________________________________________________

Everyone also has their lasts...

8. Last person you hugged: Marcus.
9. Last song you heard: Hella Nervous, Gravy Train!!!! <3
10.last car ride: With my mommy, taking me for an appointment.
11. Last time you cried: A couple of weeks ago.
12. Last movie you watched: High School Musical. LOLZ @ DISNEY CHANNEL MOVIES.
13. Last food you ate: Leftover Boston Pizza.
14. Last shirt worn: My yellow one with doves on it from Urban Outfitters.

ROFL!!!!!!!111!ONE!!1111

2006-06-06T02:24:25Z

7/11 :

Slang term for a brief, fast act of intercourse.

thesocialretard @ 2006-06-04T11:01:00

2006-06-04T17:06:21Z

crunch, much & blow
lolz, only Lexi, Marcus and Taylor would understand
the insider there. But it was quite funny let me tell you.
Our night also included hiding behind a dirty truck
being "spys". And getting bit by like a million friggin'
mosquitos. I'm very itchy today. HARHAR.

one month<3

2006-06-01T06:04:02Z

i kinda wish i had freckles.
i think they are tres cute.

if you want to lay at the bottom of the atlantic ocean
i'll be the one that comes with my ship
and drops the anchor down oh
will you be the one that smiles for me
oh will you be the one that smiles for me
oh will you be the one that smiles for me
i'll bake you muffins and apricot tea.
if you want to glide in the night sky
i'll be the one that comes with my plane
and pulls the stars out of the night
and brings them to the day for you oh
will you be the one that smiles for me
oh will you be the one that smiles for me
oh will you be the one that smiles for me
oh will you be the one that smiles for me
i'll bake you muffins and apricot tea.

thesocialretard @ 2006-05-31T13:29:00

2006-05-31T19:31:08Z

I'M STAYING HERE IN FORT MCURRAY NEXT YEAR.
LAME, BUT AFTER MUCH THOUGHT I'M NOT READY
TO FEND FOR MYSELF IN THE WORLD OUT THERE.
I CAN'T EVEN DRIVE, I'M THAT USELESS.
SO HOW COULD I FEND FOR MYSELF OUT THERE.
I'M A MAMAS GIRL. I NEED MY FAMILY FOR JUST
A LITTLE WHILE MORE.

I don't care what anyone says, about
how I'm fucking myself over or how
I'm going to rot in this hell hole.
Move out, live your lives, I'll
get out of this town soon.
When I'm ready.

It really won't be that bad.

thesocialretard @ 2006-05-30T13:11:00

2006-05-30T19:15:55Z

I really don't want to go to school in a bit.
It's really hard when you have second and third block spares
to have motivation to go to class last block, especially
when it's something useless like french.

I think I'm actually getting really scared about graduation.
All my dreams are related to them recently, and all the bad things that could happen. Like friends getting shot in front of me, really gory gory shit.
I thought they stopped cause I didn't have night tremors for a couple of nights. But no, they've started again. Flippin' wonderful.

I don't want to go to work. Because people are pissing me off there.
We have this one girl that seriously, fakes sick and leaves eons early from when her shift ends, fucking everyone over for the rest of the night. Hopefully I don't work with her tonight, or else I'll throw a spaz.

This morning when I woke up, my monroe jewelery fell out during the middle of the night and I lost it. I had a freak out, luckily I have an extra one
but it doesn't fit right.

Looks like it's going to rain. This is turning into a lovely day.

On a side note to my bitching and complaining, Congratulations to Tim Cooper On Canadian Idol last night. w00t w00t.

Yupppppppp I'm pretty much out of stuff to write.
STAY TUNED FOR MORE.

wef9p7fewhioefwohio

2006-05-28T03:20:56Z

Home from Red Deer.
I wish my bus crashed.
Pretty annoying weekend.
Got some cute clothes, and makeup.
Had 2 nosebleeds today.
I think I might die.
I feel like a depressed mess.
YEAH YEAH I FUCK EVERYTHING UP.
And I have no self-control.
Which makes me get into shit all the time.
I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry.
But really to do you I doubt it matters.
FUCKITY FUCK FUCK.
god damn it.
OKAY NOSE IS BLEEEDING AGAIN.
I have stigmata in my nose.
Kay that didn't make sense.
FUCK IT, i'll just let my nose bleed everywhere.

for him :)

2006-05-25T06:06:18Z

Finally after years and years of longing.
I've found everything I could ever want.
For once, I feel like my life lacks nothing.
I feel the safety and warmth I thought never existed.
Time goes by way to fast when I'm with you,
and I sit up at night, wishing there were more than twenty-four
hours in the day so I could spend them all with you.

Who ever knew that one person, could change my life forever?
Leave me with a smile, planted permanantly on my face.
We click so well, although in some cases we are polar opposites,
but then again the saying goes that "opposites do attract."

I know in my heart that what I feel for you couldn't ever be infactuation.
I love you with all the life left in me.
You are the first thing I think of when I wake up,
and the last thing to cross my mind whenever I go to bed.
You are the only person in the world that I can't wait to see again.

When I'm around you, I'm never bored.
Even when all we do is sit in my living room, until late hours of the night
watching television.

As long as I'm with you. Nothing else will ever matter.

red hurrr

2006-05-23T19:22:25Z

Brown with a red tiny my ass.
This dye was totally all red.
My hair kinda reminds of Ariel
from the little mermaid now.
Pretty nice for a mistake though.
We all need a change sometimes.

thesocialretard @ 2006-05-22T23:51:00

2006-05-23T05:55:21Z

Ack. School in the morning.
Why can't westwood have some crazy stoner break into it
so I dont' have to attend school tomororw. WAIT, it's because we all suck
and comp was lucky. Boo-urns to that.

I dyed my hair today. It was supposed to be like a lightly reddish brown.
LET ME TELL YOU, IT'S VERY RED. I like it, it's a change. I think
I'm going to have to touch it up soon though, because I can kinda still be brown in spots.

My parents told me today that when I go away this weekend on a bigbandnerdtrip that I am
NOT ALLOWED TO GET A PIERCING/TATTOO. I say, fuck that. I do what I want.

So chances are, I will get grounded and never allowed to see anyone ever again.
But that's okay because the only person I really hang out with is my boyfriend.

Okay I'm contemplating quitting livejournal. My entries are getting PAINFULLY boring.
There's not even any drama going on. Quick someone create drama so I can
post something dramatic on here. I miss my old glory angst days.

OH GREAT, COMPYS BEING TEMPERMENTAL. BETTER SUM UP ENTRY.
aurevoir

thesocialretard @ 2006-05-21T19:25:00

2006-05-22T01:25:38Z

dear world.
i suck royally.
JUST KIDDING I ROCK.

thesocialretard @ 2006-05-18T20:48:00

2006-05-19T02:54:42Z

Today I realized on hand that people are friggin' bitches.
Seriously, someone did something today that was SO RUDE.
I couldn't even believe it. Especially when she bitches on and on
about people being so mean to her. I'm through with that shit.
Tell someone else your friggin' problems from now on honey
because I'm through with helping you. You always say that people
are so mean to you, well what you did today was rude and just as mean.

I also realized, everyone is getting they're braces off.
Tori's teeth look lovely. Taylors teeth are dazzling aswell.
WOOOHOOO RETAINER CLUB FOR ALL.

I'm going to red deer next week, for a stupid band trip.
BUT IT'S PIERCING TIME, if we stop in edmonton.
lolz my parents are going to disown me.

Well I haven't decided weather I want to watch the OC season finale at 9.. or 10.
And this whole having the computer broken thing is working out good.
I came to realize the computer is my number one vice.
Ans maybe not going on it so often, will be good for me.
Always gotta look at it on the bright side I suppose.
Text messaging is way better anyways.
780-747-3302. Yes. I just listed my phone number on the net.
STALK ME. I dare you.
HAR HAR HAR.

well, later days.

ps: does the ammonia in the air make anyone else sick besides me?
The smell of catpee in the air isn't very cool either.
What a crap town.

lalalala

2006-05-16T18:39:28Z

Greetings all.
I'm on my sisters computer (she'll kill me when she finds out. Hopefully she never will though) in my backyard. Thank jesus for wireless internet eh? It's really nice and warm right now, I think
summer has finally landed. WOOOHOOOOO.

Everything is going jolly good right now, I'm very very
happy with my life right now. May long weekends coming up.
Parrrrty time. But not really cause I'm kind of lame.

I think the only crappy thing that's happend as of recently was some rumor going around that I slept with this gross guy who's like 27 and i've never said more than 5 words to him in my life. But oh well, rumors make me feel popular.

Maybe I will paint my nails again, they're red right now (not that anyone really gives two shits... aha) but it's like.. chipping so it looks stupid.

I really have no motivation to go back to class for 1:30... or
go to work. I just want to lay out in the sun. It's really warm outside. So to all of you who don't work/go to school. Go sit outside in the sun and enjoy it for me.

:-)

may 12th

2006-05-12T17:02:04Z

Remeber that time, that I praised the computer
because it was getting better. I must have jinxed myself
because last night, computer wouldn't turn on and now
is permantantly dead. Wow 3 computers in 2 years,
my family probably shouldn't invest in computers anymore.
But then again, without a comptuer, where would I be right now?
Probably playing with like a hula-hoop and a stick
just like children back in the day before Nintendo DS and all that lovely lovely stuff.

There's like 23 days left of school.
I r teh excited.
So that means that there is only..

w00t look how cool. that poor little girl is
going right to the dragon, who will prolly eat her when it reaches to my birthday.

Yup yup my life is boring.
SCHOOL SUCKS, bitchbitch whine whine.
I have no computer so now
I have to update from random spots like the Westwood Library.

DAVINCI CODE IS OUT NEXT WEEK. REJOICE, SEOMTHIGN TO LOOK FORWARD TO!!!!!!1111

annnnnd i'm out.
i have like 30 minutes to kill until my one class is starting.

thesocialretard @ 2006-05-10T12:13:00

2006-05-10T18:21:54Z

Okay.
Ladies and gentlemen, my computer
is a HUNK OF SHIT. I am so not impressed with this computer it's not even funny.
The other day, it just died.. stopped working. So I had to restart it.
LOST EVERYTHING. Of course I haven't done a backup in like 5 months sooo perfect.
Thank you computer for making me lose, everything.
Msn and everything, hardly works even though i redid everything.
So yeah, if I don't update/come online or anything for a while
it's because the computer is a hunk of crap and I hucked it out a window.

My cleaning lady is in my house as I am typing this, I think she's trying to read it
while she's vaccuuming. What a snoop. While I'm gone, she's probably looking at all the stuff in the house. I really don't blame her because I know I'd do the same. But still.. that's kinda creepy. She kind of reminds of that creepy butler from Mr. Deeds who pops up out of nowhere, but without her my house would be a friggin mess.

I have no idea what is with me today, I appologize if I was a major bitch to
anyone that may have encountered me this morning. I was snappy. I got my grad shirt today
and it's like 8 million sizes too big for me, so I'm going to have to hem/re-alter
everything.

W00t this entry is actually more than 3 sentences long. Go me. I'm on a roll.
I am not impressed with work right now, because I have to work until thursday.
And if I miss the season finale of the OC on thursday, I will have a freak out.

HOLY CRAP, MY SPEAKERS WORK. SOMEONE JUST LOGGED INTO MSN, AND IT MADE A SOUND.
Thank you computer, one thing actually works.

Holy hannah 25 days of school left. Jumpin' jesus time has flown by really fast.
I am so happy with where I am right now, you don't even know.
Even though my computer doesn't work, and it's a flaming hunk of shit.
I am so happy with my life, I really don't need the computer.

SO YEAH... AWKWARD PAUSE IN MY LIVEJOURNAL ENTRY.
I'm running out of things to write.
french classa at 1:30
RETARDED RETARDED RETARDED.

Oops here comes cleaning lady.
I'm going to log off the computer now before I break it anymore.

LOVE;LOVE;LOVE
HEARTS;HEARTS;HEARTS

-sammi

ps: I JUST REALIZED I LOST MY PICTURES I TOOK FROM THE SHOW LAST WEEK, GOD DAMMIT!!!!11111!

pps:

that makes this entry 100 times better than my retarded ramblings :)