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this journals too emo
you can find me at
my new domain.
ninjahighschool@lj.com
ADD IT BITCH!
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[Sunday
July 9th @ 12:08am] |
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AFTER TWO YEARS
I FINALLY GOT A NEW
LIVEJOURNAL.
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) ninjahighschooladd me. i'm deleting
this account.
kthnks.
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| GRADUATION ENTRY |
[Friday
June 30th @ 2:41am] |
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I remember ;
When getting high meant swinging at the playground.
The worst thing you could get from boys was cooties.
Mom was your hero and Dad was the only boy in your life.
Your worst enemies were your siblings.
Race issues were who ran the fastest.
War was a card game.
The only drug you knew of was cough medicine.
Wearing skirts didn't mean you were a slut.
The only thing you smoked was the tires on your bike.
The only thing that hurt was skinned knees.
The only things that could get broken were your toys.
Life was simple and carefree,
but what i remember
the most was wanting to grow up.
Now I just want to be a kid again.
ACK I GOTTA GO GRADUATE NOW.
WISH ME LUCK THAT I WON'T FALL ON MY FACE.
HAR HAR AT ME FOR DRINKING, AND JUST GETTING HOME.
AND GOING TO THE PODOLLAN.
AND NOT GETTING A GOOD NIGHTS SLEEP.
SEE YOU AT THE CEREMONIES.
I LOVE YOU.
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[Wednesday
June 28th @ 2:34pm] |
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I WILL - take a shower sometime today
I WONT - try to stress out so much because everything is going wrong
I THINK - my piercing hates me. it's infected
I SHOULD- do laundry
I COULD - take my piercing out. but i really dont want to
I WOULD - love to have flawless skin for grad
I DIDNT - go to grad song rehersal today. i slept through it
I LOOK - like hell
I HEAR - regina spektor
I HURT - my leg. it's all scratched up from bugbites. GREAT
I H0PE - everything will work out for graduation because i'm stressed
I LOVE - regina spektor, i would go gay for her
I HATE - the weather. SERIOUSLY IT'S UNCOMFORTABLE
I FEAR - further infection of monroey.
I HOPE TO - get a good nights sleep tonight
I CRAVE - sushi
I DONT - want to hang out with anyone today. i'm kinda of a mess
I NEED - to workout, i'm a fat slob
I FEEL - grimy,gross,greasy and fat
I REGRET - nothing. regretting things is stupid
I CARE - about my friends, deeply i do
I AM ALWAYS TRYING TO - get my computer to work, too bad he doesn't cooperate
I LISTEN TO - regina spektor, SEX TO THE EARS
I HIDE - my ugly skin under like 5lbs of cakeface makeup
I SING - in the shower
I WRITE - in livejournal
I MISS- being young
I LEARN - nothing. I'M OUT OF SCHOOL FOOLS
I'LL ALWAYS - be self-concious
I WILL BE - myself. always
I SAY IT - what?
I DONT THINK - I have an outfit to wear under my cap and gown
I LOVE TO - worry
I WORRY - all the time. i should chill out more
I MISS - the sims 2
I CANT STAND - being so unsure about myself
I LOST - batteries for my camera. fuck fuck fuck
I DANCE - when i feel like effin dancing
I BELIEVE - god honestly hates me
I KNOW - things eventually work out
I HOPE - I made the right choices
I FELL - in love twice, and got hurt twice
I ALWAYS - brush my teeth, three times a day
I WISH - all of my worries/problems would go away
I CRY - because i'm super-sensitive
I WANT - super long eyelashes
I HAVE - no clean clothes
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[Tuesday
June 27th @ 1:01am] |
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I prolly have the sexiest relatives alive.
HER FOR EXAMPLE.
ohmygosh. sexbombsexbomb you my sex bomb.
too bad we don't even look related.
i wish i had a puffy white afro.
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[Wednesday
June 14th @ 12:53am] |
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I HATE FIGHTING.
I HATE FRENCH PROJECTS.
I HATE THE FACT THAT I'M NOT EVEN LIKE STARTED MY MUSIC COMPOSITION PROJECT.
I HATE PEOPLE WHO ARE ARROGENT JERKS.
I AM FULL OF HATE.
I do however love caffine.
And good music.
And purple glue sticks.
And how easily amused I am.
But fuck.. this is the longest night/day ever.
And things.. are not looking so bright.
But soon schools out.
forever.
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| Two Months exactly till my birthday. |
[Friday
June 9th @ 10:43am] |
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So I just finished "The Perks of Being A Wallflower" this morning. I started it yesterday at work, and stayed up really late just to read it. I couldn't put the book down. From begining to end, it was just perfect. I suggest anyone who hasn't read it, go get it or borrow it from me or something.
The things that went on in the life of the character Charlie, really related to obsticles and problems that came up in my life during highschool. I guess it's kind of ironic that I read the book so close to the conclusion of the school year, and high school.
In "Perks" it was talking a lot about the book "Naked Lunch", and it sparked my interest, if anyone has read it can they tell me if it's any good?
Next on my reading list, is "The House of Leaves". It's kind of funny because everyone seems to be reading or trying to read it right now anyways. Which is a good thing for me, because then maybe I'll somehow get what the fuck is going on in the book. I looked at it , some of the pages and I was like "OH GOOD LORD" but I'm really excited to start it.
Yeah, I am huge booknerd.
I just realized after everything I just typed
that some of you are probably laughign at me
because I just made myself sound like I have no life
other than reading, which is only partically true because
the rest of my time is spent at work. HAHA.
Fridays at school are always pretty dull.
I have to stay here during my spares, because classes are
shortened and there's no point in going home.
I'm kind of feeling a little stressed right now.
I have three projects in french due by the end of school.
I've started all three, I'm going to finish one of them tonight, and then the rest of the weekend will be me
trying to finish the other two. And then I will have
the week to study for my final in french, because
I want to get at least a 90 on it so I can keep a high
mark in the course, and say I did good on something in highschool. You know, if an english teacher or english major in
University read my entries, they would probably be appauled
at how many run-on sentences, and inproper paragraphing
I have.
I have to still figure out what I am going to do for my arranging project in music. I dislike transposing very much, buuuuuut it has to be done.
Alright, I'm feeling a little bit of motiviation right now,
so perhaps I will work on some more of my french projects.
I have to make a photocopy, but there is a man fixing the machine. Just my luck.
I've also worked all week, I dislike work very much right now. But I won't when I get paid next, hey I got paid today. Things are looking better already.
LONG ENTRY. Very scattered. My appologies.
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| Yes, I got THAT bored |
[Tuesday
June 6th @ 12:49pm] |
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sat through a whole episode of...
[x] the simple life.
[x] family guy.
[x] saturday night live.
[x] that 70s show.
[x] degrassi.
[x] america's next top model.
[x] spongebob
[ ] the surreal life.
[x] american idol.
[x] house.
[x] grey's anatomy.
[x] malcolm in the middle.
[ ] the real world.
[x] gilmore girls.
[x] the oc.
[x] everwood.
[ ] love the 70s, 80s, 90s.
[x] ER.
[ ] instant star.
[ ]the wiggles.
[x] laguna beach.
[x]the apprentice
[ ] the soup.
[ ] date my mom.
[xxx<333] sex and the city.
[x] 24
[ ] lost.
[x] prison break.
[x] desperate housewives.
[x] the simpsons.
[ ] the sopranos.
[ ] my name is earl.
[x]friends.
[x] the office.
[x]will & grace.
[x] seinfeld.
[x] zoey 101.
[x] pimp my ride.
[x]saved by the bell.
[ ] So Notorious.
[x] punk'd.
[x] boy meets world.
AKA: I WATCH TOO MUCH DAMN TELEVISION
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Today did you...
1. Talk to someone you liked: no.
2. Buy something: ughh no.
3. Get sick: nope
4. Sing: yes
5. Make out and or kiss someone: no.
8. Talk to an ex: no
9. Miss someone: yes/
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Last person who....
10. Layed in a bed with you: Marcus.
11. Saw you cry: Probably Marcus, or Shanna.
12. Made you cry: I don't really remember, it's been a while.
13. Went to the movies with you: My daddy. We saw the Davinci Code.
14. Made you Laugh: Shanna, when we were watching Sex and the City during sparology.
15. Made you angry: Mr Eddy, he talked the entire damn theory class , I couldn't
concentrate on my assignment, and then I had to rush it, and it's crap.
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16. Ever been in a fight with your pet: What a random question. No?
17. Been to California: No. I want to. WARRRRRRRRMNESS.
18. Been to Hawaii: No.
19. Been to Canada: Duh.
20. Been to Europe: Yes. I want to go back someday.
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Random....
21. Looking forward to something: Graduation in a way, and summer :)
22. What book are you reading now: Angels and Demons , but I have books on order in the mail!
25. What do you sleep with: Blankies?
26. What's under your bed: Random clothes, socks and old magazines.
27. Favorite sport to watch: Nothing, I'm not a sports person.
28. Current Location: Downstairs living room.
29. Piercings/tattoos: Monroe, Ears.
30. What are you most scared of right now: Graduation.
31. Where do you want to get married? Anywhere but fort mcmurray thanks.
32. Who do you really hate?: The only person I can say I hate is Gillian Lowell.
33. Do you have a job: Yes. Do I like it? No.
35. Do you like being around people: yes.
36. Have you ever cried: Dumb question, of course.. I have emotions.
37. Are you lonely right now: Not really, my dog is curled up beside me.
38. Song that's stuck in your head right now: Summer Rain, some WAY OLD 80s pop song. Haha.
39. Played strip poker: Yes.
41. Been on radio/TV: Yes, I was on the radio once, and I did a commercial for CTV when I was little.
42. Ever liked someone who treated you like crap?: Yes. Jerks.
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FIRSTS
1. First school: Summer Smiles Pre-School or else Ecole Birchwood School
2. First screenname: Something along the lines of Princess Chatterbox. LOLZ AT ME.
3. First funeral: Dana's moms funeral.
4. First big trip: Paris and England.
5. First celebrity love: Jonathon Taylor Thomas
6. First job: Babysitting.
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Everyone also has their lasts...
8. Last person you hugged: Marcus.
9. Last song you heard: Hella Nervous, Gravy Train!!!! <3
10.last car ride: With my mommy, taking me for an appointment.
11. Last time you cried: A couple of weeks ago.
12. Last movie you watched: High School Musical. LOLZ @ DISNEY CHANNEL MOVIES.
13. Last food you ate: Leftover Boston Pizza.
14. Last shirt worn: My yellow one with doves on it from Urban Outfitters.
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| ROFL!!!!!!!111!ONE!!1111 |
[Monday
June 5th @ 8:23pm] |
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7/11 :
Slang term for a brief, fast act of intercourse.
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[Sunday
June 4th @ 11:01am] |
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crunch, much & blow
lolz, only Lexi, Marcus and Taylor would understand
the insider there. But it was quite funny let me tell you.
Our night also included hiding behind a dirty truck
being "spys". And getting bit by like a million friggin'
mosquitos. I'm very itchy today. HARHAR.
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[Wednesday
May 31st @ 1:29pm] |
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I'M STAYING HERE IN FORT MCURRAY NEXT YEAR.
LAME, BUT AFTER MUCH THOUGHT I'M NOT READY
TO FEND FOR MYSELF IN THE WORLD OUT THERE.
I CAN'T EVEN DRIVE, I'M THAT USELESS.
SO HOW COULD I FEND FOR MYSELF OUT THERE.
I'M A MAMAS GIRL. I NEED MY FAMILY FOR JUST
A LITTLE WHILE MORE.
I don't care what anyone says, about
how I'm fucking myself over or how
I'm going to rot in this hell hole.
Move out, live your lives, I'll
get out of this town soon.
When I'm ready.
It really won't be that bad.
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[Tuesday
May 30th @ 1:11pm] |
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I really don't want to go to school in a bit.
It's really hard when you have second and third block spares
to have motivation to go to class last block, especially
when it's something useless like french.
I think I'm actually getting really scared about graduation.
All my dreams are related to them recently, and all the bad things that could happen. Like friends getting shot in front of me, really gory gory shit.
I thought they stopped cause I didn't have night tremors for a couple of nights. But no, they've started again. Flippin' wonderful.
I don't want to go to work. Because people are pissing me off there.
We have this one girl that seriously, fakes sick and leaves eons early from when her shift ends, fucking everyone over for the rest of the night. Hopefully I don't work with her tonight, or else I'll throw a spaz.
This morning when I woke up, my monroe jewelery fell out during the middle of the night and I lost it. I had a freak out, luckily I have an extra one
but it doesn't fit right.
Looks like it's going to rain. This is turning into a lovely day.
On a side note to my bitching and complaining, Congratulations to Tim Cooper On Canadian Idol last night. w00t w00t.
Yupppppppp I'm pretty much out of stuff to write.
STAY TUNED FOR MORE.
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[Saturday
May 27th @ 9:19pm] |
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Home from Red Deer.
I wish my bus crashed.
Pretty annoying weekend.
Got some cute clothes, and makeup.
Had 2 nosebleeds today.
I think I might die.
I feel like a depressed mess.
YEAH YEAH I FUCK EVERYTHING UP.
And I have no self-control.
Which makes me get into shit all the time.
I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry.
But really to do you I doubt it matters.
FUCKITY FUCK FUCK.
god damn it.
OKAY NOSE IS BLEEEDING AGAIN.
I have stigmata in my nose.
Kay that didn't make sense.
FUCK IT, i'll just let my nose bleed everywhere.
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| for him :) |
[Wednesday
May 24th @ 11:59pm] |
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Finally after years and years of longing.
I've found everything I could ever want.
For once, I feel like my life lacks nothing.
I feel the safety and warmth I thought never existed.
Time goes by way to fast when I'm with you,
and I sit up at night, wishing there were more than twenty-four
hours in the day so I could spend them all with you.
Who ever knew that one person, could change my life forever?
Leave me with a smile, planted permanantly on my face.
We click so well, although in some cases we are polar opposites,
but then again the saying goes that "opposites do attract."
I know in my heart that what I feel for you couldn't ever be infactuation.
I love you with all the life left in me.
You are the first thing I think of when I wake up,
and the last thing to cross my mind whenever I go to bed.
You are the only person in the world that I can't wait to see again.
When I'm around you, I'm never bored.
Even when all we do is sit in my living room, until late hours of the night
watching television.
As long as I'm with you. Nothing else will ever matter.
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[Monday
May 22nd @ 11:51pm] |
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Ack. School in the morning.
Why can't westwood have some crazy stoner break into it
so I dont' have to attend school tomororw. WAIT, it's because we all suck
and comp was lucky. Boo-urns to that.
I dyed my hair today. It was supposed to be like a lightly reddish brown.
LET ME TELL YOU, IT'S VERY RED. I like it, it's a change. I think
I'm going to have to touch it up soon though, because I can kinda still be brown in spots.
My parents told me today that when I go away this weekend on a bigbandnerdtrip that I am
NOT ALLOWED TO GET A PIERCING/TATTOO. I say, fuck that. I do what I want.
So chances are, I will get grounded and never allowed to see anyone ever again.
But that's okay because the only person I really hang out with is my boyfriend.
Okay I'm contemplating quitting livejournal. My entries are getting PAINFULLY boring.
There's not even any drama going on. Quick someone create drama so I can
post something dramatic on here. I miss my old glory angst days.
OH GREAT, COMPYS BEING TEMPERMENTAL. BETTER SUM UP ENTRY.
aurevoir
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